hey, its been a while

its funny, you know. tomorrow it will have been 9 months since i last wrote anything here. in that time, i sunk into the saddest hole i've been. jumped back up. fallen halfway. jumped up again and crawled out- only to find myself falling in love and feeling more happiness i thought i ever could. and then one day around when i turned 17, i lost it all

for always? i don't know if i've lost it for always, or if this is just something that had to happen but love is for always..

that's not exactly the point here though. the biggest deal is, its been 9 months since i last wrote here. and since then, i've become such a different gal but i have stayed so much the same. nobody is stopping this heart that loves like crazy even when everything is messing up, and i still smile a lot. just with more on my brain. knowing how to let go of a friend. learning about a love i've never learned about before and learning..how to let it go, cause i gotta..



i don't know the next time i will write here. but as silly as past posts look now, i know that i should keep them and remind me that this is all gonna be okay. its all gonna be okay

so much love,
the same emily, 9 months older