happy almostapril

its a really bothersome feeling when you remember days of the past really clearly, and you realize that RIGHT NOW, at EXACTLY this moment..if it were a year ago, you'd be exploding with happiness. now i'm not really exploding with anything, just kinda sitting. wondering if i should tell you who i am, wondering if i really have been stupid all along (even though up til recently, you said that i wasn't)..wondering if maybe, i might even just be worried for no reason

i don't want it like this

i don't want her to talk

i don't want you to leave

i turn 18 in 25 days and my god. this time, a birthday WILL matter.

miss ya

miss ya tomorrow too..and that's no early's april fools joke